love

My former girlfriend who I loved and still do, called me to tell me that she loves me and that she means it, she really loves me and needs to see me. I put it off for a week then called her back to tell her that I was a little busy this week but how about next week? She agreed, when next week came, she called and left a message that she wants to see me and to call her back. I never did. 3 weeks later, her sister Lori called to tell me that the medical condition that my girl had, killed her. She died alone on 4-1-09. I was to busy working even though I had to drive by her apt. every day to go home. Ask yourself this question....How does it feel to be me, right now? I was going to put down the lesson learned, but it is there for you to see. Waves of hurt and regret wash over me. Now the question for me is...how do I deal with this? I hear my thoughts loud and clear....if only.......if only. When I think of Deborah..........................I always smile...I still have my memories. I will always remember.

I love you Deborah Friedlinghaus and will miss you